God’s Workshop
I am a human in disrepair – Only GOD alone can FIX Me!
“Life has hurt my feelings. I am the underdog. I am no longer in a birthing process – I am HERE and now it is time to grow. I also realize you can not separate yourself from yourself, so if change is going to come it will have to start with ME and continue with my willingness to let God take the wheel”
Over the course of two years, God came along and whispered sweet nothings in my ear. He said I would accomplish great things. He was specific, never leaving details of my colorful life untold.
- You will be a leader to leaders.
- You will be the wife of RMS
- Your children will be nurtured in a house of love.
- Your life will be in total alignment spiritually, mentally, physically, emotionally and financially.
- You will be free to worship ME with your very being.
His words surrounded my heart and danced around the stairs of my soul. I clung to them with my very life ~ never realizing only HE would be able to make this dream a reality.
November 3, 2009
I cried profusely today. As tears dripped down the palate of my face I could only utter two words, God HELP.
I have entered the beginning stages of what appears to be God’s promise, yet through human eyes it would seem as if I should call 211, find the nearest psycho ward and permanently ~ quietly admit myself. God’s view of what WILL be ~ Surely is NOT in this moment.
For the sake of admitting my human flaw and noting the depth of my human mistakes, I will submit this list of the person I currently am.
God Says: LEADER TO LEADERS
Reality TODAY Says: Scatterbrained, Unorganized, Reclusive, Irresponsible, Indecisive, People Pleaser
God Says: THE WIFE OF RMS
Reality TODAY Says: Barely Friends, Low Communication, Constant Disappointment, Deepened Mistakes, Growing Hurt with Every Encounter
God Says: CHILDREN NURTURED IN A HOUSE OF LOVE
Reality TODAY Says: Limited Custody, Daughter & Son Show Signs Beginning Stages of Mental Illness/Emotional Abuse, Constant Court Battles with Ex.
God Says: TOTAL ALIGNMENT
Reality TODAY Says: Spiritually, Physically, Emotionally, Mentally and Financially all over the place and out of control, Needy, Overeater, Selfish/Self-Centered, Constant Risk Taking without Evaluation, Over Emotional, Sex Addict
God Says: FREE TO WORSHIP
Reality TODAY Says: Worship is limited to church/home experiences, Desire for Crazy Worship Gets Stronger Daily
Life has hurt my feelings. I am the underdog. I am no longer in a birthing process – I am here and now it is time to grow. I also realize you can not separate yourself from yourself, so if change is going to come it will have to start with ME and continue with my willingness to let God take the wheel. My reliance will be on Him to guide my every step, yet it will be my responsibility to take action on what is being said.
My human hands have led me to sabotage success in personal and professional relationships. I shutter in revealing my human flaws because the exposure causes people to judge and point the finger. Yet, I also realize that we are all weak in an area of our lives that God can and will take FULL pleasure in repairing.
I have never been in this place before and I can see God’s hand literally leading my life. The choices I make everyday become easier and harder as I come to the reality of myself. I realize that there is so much work God must do to bring me to the reality HE has whispered in my ears. I believe HIM.
I stop bribing myself to rehash the past to create my future. My past is at the point of disrepair. There is nothing left to it and further dabbling will only lead to the destructive explosion of my internally wired time bomb. Now, I am standing still. Breathing deeply and waiting patiently for God to disarm the alarm and set me COMPLETELY free to BE Myself.
Sherita Searcy




